Living In Between Worlds

The phone has stopped ringing. No more invites through email or messages on FB. No more "lets get together for coffee!" I actually know a few people in OKC. Oddly enough, most are my husbands cousinis ex-girl friends. Say that three times fast! whatever happened with the relationship, we somehow remained friends. And with fabulous networking sites like Facebook, how can we not. However, the tone has changed. They know it's here, I know it's here. In less than 2 weeks, Memphis will no longer be a dream, but reality.

To be honest, I'm a bit terrified. It's actually happening. I have an apartment in Memphis with closets full of boxes to testify! Each day, the items available for daily use dwindles as the boxes stack higher. The electricty has been changed to our name in Memphis. The changed of address not quite complete, but will be soon. The collection of local OKC take out menus grows as the food in the fridge dwindles. It's actually here. It's actually happening.

A year ago, this seemed to be a distant hope. In fact, even by Christmas we were giving life in Alabama all we had. This whole FAA thing, just didnt seem like it was going to pan out. Then, one day, it did.

It's funny how everything changes so fast. Life really isnt what we plan. It never is. We all have an idea of where we think it's going, by how often does it actually do just that? Rarely. Slim to none! Realy that's okay though. sometimes it's worse, but sometimes it's so much better. Sometimes we learn things about ourselves that we never knew. For instance, Memphis. during the process, I didnt want Memphis. In fact, we actually talked about turning down an offer of Memphis. After all, of the good things it's know for,there are a good many bad to go along with each one. Did you know it is the second most dangerous city to live in? Second to Detroit. Did you know it has a history of corrupt politics...(but in it's defense, what city doesnt?)? However, when the notice came that he had been picked for Memphis...strangely, the fear and distaste vanished. Instead there was a sense of excitment, adventure and, dare I say, compassion towards this new city in my life? It's strange how life takes us on these journeys. Indeed strange.

Here I sit in bed, late at night, less that 2 weeks from moving to Memphis. So much is on my mind. What is in store? What friends will I make? What friends will the kids and Shawn make? Will Shawn like his new career? Will we really like our new apartment?where is the nearest grocery store? Is there a nearby Target? are there plans of a SuperTarget? Does target sell blue suede shoes? Does anyone? Most importantly, will it snow this winter?!?!?

With such questions on the mind, how can one sleep tonight?

This is Emily, signing out for now, but soon will be Walking in Memphis...

Count Down Begins!!

Wow, here I sit, one week from taking our first load to Memphis. I'll be in Texas all next week seeing a Dr. All my packing must be done this week. Shawn will be bring thing stuff over when he leaves after his classes are over. I'll be leaving earlier so I can sign the lease and get the keys.

When this all began over a year ago, it seemed so far away. Even when we moved to OKC for the training course, it still seemed far away. Now I look back and cant believe how these past few months flew by. We have just about 4 weeks left. It will go by fast too! It takes alot of effort and time to relocate. When you are footing the bill and all the preperations, your time fills up fast.

Thankfully movers have been hired so the whole ordeal of moving things OUT of a 3rd story apartment, GONE!! YAY! However, the boxes have to be packed to their moving standards!! Anything not packed correctly, will be repacked at our expense. I dont think we'll have any problems. as long as they show up on time, do their job and deliver our furniture unharmed, I'm good.

I am getting nervous. Before all of this was in the distance. I knew it was happening, but it seemed so far off, so unrealistic. Now the pressures have hit me. It's here. The preperations have begun!! It's no longer, oh we'll worry about that when it gets here, it's here! I have been feeling so very fatigued ad so very weak. It takes alot of energy out of me to get through each day, let alone deal with the moving preperations. I have procrastinated all week and now I have to face it and deal with it.

What do i bring with me this first load? What will I need? What will be nice to have? What can we live without here in OKC the next 4 weeks? Oh list goes on. Must remember to relax. Must remember to stay focused. Must remember to breathe!!!!